Boo Snow

Oh mother winter please let this be the last big snow.  I don't have much to say today.  My eating was good.  I didn't make it to the gym because of this snow storm but I did get some exercise in.  I decided to shovel the front of my building and my neighbors building.  I know I sound crazy but I really wanted some exercise and my apartment is small.  Plus I've always wanted to shovel snow.  It wasn't that much snow but my arms are sore!  I broke a sweat and everything.

Tomorrow I hope I can go to the gym and I hope my favorite class isn't canceled.  

Who? Dairy, me? No...

Hi friends!  I had a great jump start yesterday.  I went to total body conditioning last night and I also stayed for the abs and rebounding classes.  I didn’t go full out for any of the classes because I physically can’t right now but I felt really good.  My abs and tush are sore!  I love feeling sore and knowing it’s because I put some work in.  I didn’t eat my greens yesterday but I’m doing better today.

I went out to breakfast with my hubby this morning and I thought I ordered semi healthy but I decided to ask my waitress how the meal was prepared.  I don’t usually make special requests with how my food is prepared because I feel like I’m hassling the waitress and insulting the chef. But out of curiosity and because the meal tasted so good and my waitress was bright and friendly, I decided to get this information.  I had ordered from the side menu, two scrambled eggs and an order of kale, healthy right?  She tells me that the eggs were made with heavy cream and butter and the kale was also prepared with butter.  Ouch.  I already devoured the meal with the exception of a bite of egg so there was no turning back.  She must have noticed the pain in my face because she told me that if I was looking for a non-dairy option I could get poached eggs and request no butter.  How sweet that she thought it was a dairy problem. My husband laughed and said he was surprised I didn’t talk about weight watcher points with her.  I was in a cool restaurant with a hipster waitress, I preferred for her to assume I was anti dairy.  I think next time, in a super kind way, I will ask how the meal is prepared before I order.  

I haven’t decided how I will workout tomorrow but I will either take a class or run for 15 minutes.  I hope this snow doesn’t close down the transit system.  I will track what I eat and not go over my daily weight watcher points.

Goals for today

Meditate 

Eat more greens

Go to bed early

I Surrender O Uncertainty

Hi Friends.  It feels really great to be writing.  I’ve been resistant to blogging because life is not inspirational to me lately and it’s much more fun to write when I feel great.  I’ve been having a difficult time taking care of myself and I know the reason, so that’s what I’m going to write about.  Talking about my truth can be a little embarrassing at times but it’s also liberating and I feel encouraged and free when I do so. 

So lately I haven’t been able to make healthy eating choices or exercise because life feels uncomfortable and God isn’t doing what I want him to do.  I laughed as I wrote that.  My husband is in between work and the truth is, it’s effin scary when that happens.  I want this picture of security and when the picture doesn’t look secure one month from now in my mind, I want to obsess about it and that weight gets really heavy.  Thus making it difficult to do things like go for a run, go to the gym, or make a healthy meal.  I told my friend recently that I wish I could sleep through uncertainty and then wake up and everything look like I want it to.  Well La-di-da, life doesn’t work like that and thank God for that!  

I started meditating recently using the “Centering Prayer.”  I’ll be honest I’ve only tried it once and it wasn’t easy but I sat with it and it was incredible.  My talks with God have been pretty amazing and enlightening.  I had this awareness that I’ve been praying a lot that God send Ellison a new job.  Now there’s nothing wrong about praying for my husband to get a job but I realized that I was motivated because I wanted to secure my feelings of security.  That’s human.  However, I’m putting my peace of mind in the hands of people, places and things when God is the only real security.  He is the only one who knows my will and Ellison’s will.  

So what now.  Well I’m not in control of my husbands employment but I can choose to take care of myself.  I can choose to trust what is because our Father in heaven is so wonderful.  He is my best friend and I know he’s looking out for me and my hubby.  I can also choose to go to body conditioning tonight.  I don’t have to do my best because showing up is enough.  I can choose to to say no to snacks that make me feel tired or heavy.  I can write down what I eat.  I can eat more greens today.   

Goals for today:

Blog-check!

Track what I eat

Go to body conditioning

Meditate

This song makes me feel so good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FUXeg-elgM