Hi guys! So from my Facebook posts yesterday I’m sure you know how fantastic of a day I had. My cousin Kate was so generous to take me with her to see Richard III staring Kevin Spacey. We were literally within spit distance from this man. It was truly remarkable. He is the most incredible actor I’ve ever seen on stage. It was mind blowing. During his bow, he was heavy breathing and looked like he was ready to collapse. He puts that much into this performance. A true gift. I was so grateful, that I started to feel guilty. Damn guilt. After the show my cousin’s boyfriend, who works as the senior technician for BAM, took us backstage. My heart is still in my throat. It was so cool.
Today I was feeling really angry because my hubby told me that I needed to make some sacrifices with my spending. I knew he meant my WW subscription and I got so furious. I decided to go to my room and meditate before I started to blame him for all my woes, which I tend to do when I don’t get my way. After some prayer and meditation it occurred to me that if I can’t afford something, then I shouldn’t have it. Then another message came to me that was really powerful. One of the best gifts I can give to Adjei is to be happy with whatever I have in the moment. I need to show him that we can live a happy life no matter how much we have. I also thought that no one person or program is responsible for my choices or needs.
We also downgraded our cable to the basic channels and this whole weekend the t.v. has been off. I’ve done more reading, listened to more music, and did more playtime with my son. We adapt to what is and I believe that when we have more than we need, we get into a vicious cycle of wanting more. I know our finances will grow in time and I pray that I stay this mindful because so far, not having extra money has been a blessing. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a grace from God that I can see it this way, a grace I don’t take lightly.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Simplifying with Grace
Hi guys! So from my Facebook posts yesterday I’m sure you know how fantastic of a day I had. My cousin Kate was so generous to take me with her to see Richard III staring Kevin Spacey. We were literally within spit distance from this man. It was truly remarkable. He is the most incredible actor I’ve ever seen on stage. It was mind blowing. During his bow, he was heavy breathing and looked like he was ready to collapse. He puts that much into this performance. A true gift. I was so grateful, that I started to feel guilty. Damn guilt. After the show my cousin’s boyfriend, who works as the senior technician for BAM, took us backstage. My heart is still in my throat. It was so cool.
Today I was feeling really angry because my hubby told me that I needed to make some sacrifices with my spending. I knew he meant my WW subscription and I got so furious. I decided to go to my room and meditate before I started to blame him for all my woes, which I tend to do when I don’t get my way. After some prayer and meditation it occurred to me that if I can’t afford something, then I shouldn’t have it. Then another message came to me that was really powerful. One of the best gifts I can give to Adjei is to be happy with whatever I have in the moment. I need to show him that we can live a happy life no matter how much we have. I also thought that no one person or program is responsible for my choices or needs.
We also downgraded our cable to the basic channels and this whole weekend the t.v. has been off. I’ve done more reading, listened to more music, and did more playtime with my son. We adapt to what is and I believe that when we have more than we need, we get into a vicious cycle of wanting more. I know our finances will grow in time and I pray that I stay this mindful because so far, not having extra money has been a blessing. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a grace from God that I can see it this way, a grace I don’t take lightly.
Today I was feeling really angry because my hubby told me that I needed to make some sacrifices with my spending. I knew he meant my WW subscription and I got so furious. I decided to go to my room and meditate before I started to blame him for all my woes, which I tend to do when I don’t get my way. After some prayer and meditation it occurred to me that if I can’t afford something, then I shouldn’t have it. Then another message came to me that was really powerful. One of the best gifts I can give to Adjei is to be happy with whatever I have in the moment. I need to show him that we can live a happy life no matter how much we have. I also thought that no one person or program is responsible for my choices or needs.
We also downgraded our cable to the basic channels and this whole weekend the t.v. has been off. I’ve done more reading, listened to more music, and did more playtime with my son. We adapt to what is and I believe that when we have more than we need, we get into a vicious cycle of wanting more. I know our finances will grow in time and I pray that I stay this mindful because so far, not having extra money has been a blessing. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a grace from God that I can see it this way, a grace I don’t take lightly.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Killer Caterpillars
What a gift of a day today is. Ellison is off so I was able to go running at 8:00 this morning and it was amazing. I did four miles at a 10:30 pace and I didn’t struggle at all. I could’ve pushed myself harder but I was enjoying my conversation with my partner so much. I’m grateful for my running partner Jade. She and I have become good friends through meeting twice a week for our early morning runs. She’s going to run her first race this year and I’m so excited. Her hubby is also going to start running. Life is so amazing. I had some quiet prayer and mediation time this morning and it just felt so great. Today I’m going to get the Frida’s waxed and I can’t wait. I feel like a monster. I call them the killer caterpillars. Adjei loves it because he’ll try to touch my eyebrows and I pretend that they bite him. They’re pretty crazy. However, I’m grateful that I have plenty to shape.
My eating is a work in progress. I wish it was easy for me because I could be so fit if I just stopped snacking. I’m the worst snacker on the planet. It’s hard to be a stay at home mom because during your down time, the exhaustion sets in, and the boredom, so you just want to eat. My danger times are 3-5. It’s now a habit that I need to quit slowly. My other danger time is 8-10. My body conditioning classes use to help with the night eating because who wants to eat after you’ve just busted your ass. I can do this!! I can, I will, I am. Today I will track what I eat and I’m also going to a kickboxing class tonight. I’m going because I was told the music is really good, it’s an ass busting workout, and my friend is giving me a free pass. I’m still surprised that a workout sounds like fun to me. Badass!
My eating is a work in progress. I wish it was easy for me because I could be so fit if I just stopped snacking. I’m the worst snacker on the planet. It’s hard to be a stay at home mom because during your down time, the exhaustion sets in, and the boredom, so you just want to eat. My danger times are 3-5. It’s now a habit that I need to quit slowly. My other danger time is 8-10. My body conditioning classes use to help with the night eating because who wants to eat after you’ve just busted your ass. I can do this!! I can, I will, I am. Today I will track what I eat and I’m also going to a kickboxing class tonight. I’m going because I was told the music is really good, it’s an ass busting workout, and my friend is giving me a free pass. I’m still surprised that a workout sounds like fun to me. Badass!
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