Ugh I feel like shit. I feel like there’s a change in my body chemistry that has me PMS’ing for like two fucking weeks. It’s torture. My eating is not good. I’ve had a lot of sugar and even fried food which hasn’t been in my diet for a very long time. My body is much less forgiving with junk. I know that it takes just one day to get back on track and that’s what I need to do. I’ve also abandoned tracking and that’s not good for me either. It’s never good for me to accept not paying attention. I have to pay attention and since I like to lie to myself about how good I eat, I need to see it on paper. I also love tracking my exercise. My papa bought me a Garmin and it’s so gratifying to see all my runs and to see my heart rate and how well I did with each mile.
For Today
What works:
Taking it slow. Today I will be outside and wear my sneakers so I can run around with Adjei.
I will drink lots of water and avoid diet coke.
I will pack fruit to snack on.
I will be gentle with myself and encourage my progress throughout the day.
I will not put a high expectation on a big push for exercise.
I will be mindful that evenings are a trigger time for me to eat poorly.
I will live with gratitude that I’ve come so far and I have an extremely blessed life.
Gratitude list:
I’m grateful to the man in the grocery line who told me I don’t have “nothin” when I told him I shouldn’t buy the ice cream as I’m pointing to my belly.
I’m grateful to my husband for picking me up to show me how light I’ve gotten.
I’m grateful for my little boo bear for telling me he loves me more than cars.
I’m grateful for the hot sun.
I’m grateful for my amazing neighborhood and for my friends and neighbors.
I’m grateful for friends and mentors who I can talk things out with.
I’m grateful for getting texts from my brothers whom I miss.
I’m grateful to God for providing all my needs.
