Battling resistance

I’m feeling so much resistance to exercise.  I’m already dreading my run tomorrow.  I’m scheduled to run five miles and I really want to blow it off.  I just want to choose to not go and sleep in instead, just wake up and tell myself that I’ll do it tomorrow.  I know how I feel when I don’t follow through and it always makes me feel bad.  I have to remind myself that I don’t have to be good or fast. I can go slow and I can even walk if I need to.  I just need to show up for myself.  This is a tough week.  I’m very happy this week and feeling extremely blessed but I’m resistant to taking care of myself.  

I do want to celebrate something today.  In case you didn’t notice, I bought some Ben and Jerry’s ice cream.  However, yesterday and today I’ve managed to have half a cup of ice cream.  I don’t think people are aware but one little pint of ice cream is 4 SERVINGS!!  A serving of ice cream is considered to be half a cup.  So think about that when you’re serving yourself some ice cream.  Before I would measure, I was probably having at least 3 servings of ice cream.  Well, I’m celebrating that I had half a cup of ice cream and it was enough.  Blessed be God, a half cup of ice cream was  enough.  Amen!

Food Diary

Morning
2  egg whites	1
1  English muffin	3
1  large banana	0
1  oz deli honey ham	1
1  fat free cheese slice	1
Subtotal	6
Midday
3  medium apricots	0
1  small apple	0
1/2 cup black beans	2
1/2 cup cooked farro	3
1  Tbsp sour cream	1
2  Lamb zucchini boats (my recipe)	11
Subtotal	17
Evening
1/2 oz Swiss cheese	1
1  oz lean deli-sliced honey ham	1
1/2 cup Ben and Jerry's half baked ice cream	7
2  cups Imagine Butternut Squash Soup	5
Subtotal	14