Day 181

I have a confession to make. I haven’t tracked yesterday or today and it’s definitely causing me some problems. I can’t believe I have to hold myself on such a tight leash. I had a horrible snacking day today. Adjei and I went into the city without his stroller and I should have known better. Poor guy got so tired that by the time we were on our way back home, he had a MAJOR crying fit on the train. It was so bad that someone came over and tried to take him from me to comfort him. I thought it was a kind gesture but I know my son and it only made it worse. Anyway, I remained calm and collective but after we got off the train, I comforted us both with ice cream from Baskin Robbins. Then it was downhill from there. I feel awful for doing that. I’m not against giving my son ice cream but I don’t want to create in him the habits I’m trying to battle. I hate writing when it’s been an embarrassing crap day. I always consider just forgetting to blog so no one knows when I fucked up. I have to track and I have to set the tone by tracking in the morning and not waiting until the evening to track the day. Tomorrow I will go to a spin class. I’m doing a babysitting swap with my neighbor/friend, so I get a few hours to myself and Adjei gets to play with his best buddy. Woo Hoo!