Today wasn’t a great day for eating. I’ve also been full of anxiety, so I know that is definitely contributing. Adjei hit his head and got a huge bump. I quietly lose my mind when my child gets hurt. I go to the top of the “what if” tragedy list. I get so crazy with fear when it comes to my little man. I want to be a carefree mom but I start thinking the worst. My brother had a head injury when he was Adjei’s age and my mom thinks it may have contributed to certain things he struggles with today. I think I’m just feeling some of the aftermath of saying goodbye to my family. I ate terribly today. I hate feeling anxious and I especially hate it when I can’t shake it of with prayer. I seriously want to cry for no reason. I miss my family. I just want to brush it all under the rug so I can get on with being happy.
Gratitude list:
My son, my love of my life
A happy and peaceful home
A loving and supportive husband
The best parents in the world
A healthy body
Nice hair
Brothers that love me so much
Nice weather
Mornings
Air conditioning
Cold clean water
Coffee
Tomorrow I will go to my WW meeting and I will go for an early morning run or Zumba. I will also start tracking again.
Aw, I'm so sorry. I would be a mess if my child hit their head. It's a natural mommy instinct. Or at least it should be. You're just adjusting to being home. Soon you be back in your routine and all will be right with the world again! xoxo
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