Day 52

I went to my body conditioning class tonight and I swear that class is so intense. While I was squeezing onto to every bit of strength I had, I kept thinking that I really want to focus on healthy living. It doesn’t make sense to work so hard at the gym and then eat junk. I actually don’t eat a lot of junk but little things like red meat, diet coke, cheese, and tortillas. I may sound obsessive and everything is okay in moderation but about three hours before my class tonight, I had one taco and lets just say I almost re-lived that dinner. Sorry.

I’m not looking forward to work tomorrow. I just can’t handle the atmosphere anymore. I understand having a lot of work to do but staying until 8 or 9 o clock is just ridiculous. I don’t stay late anymore and I know that I’m looked at as someone who is not dedicated. My boss even told me that she saw I had other priorities. It’s comical. I have a plan though. I’m taking my headshots in May because I want outdoor shots. I also plan on getting a new building to manage in June. There are several steps between here and there but I have to stay positive and focused.

There is an older actress in my WW meeting. There are actually several theatre people in my WW meeting because my meeting is on Broadway. ☺ Anyway, this woman is so amazing and beautiful. She was saying that she was doing a play that was pretty stressful because she was working with a much older actress who forgets her lines. Anyway, she was saying that she wanted to eliminate all anxiety that she could control so she cut out caffeine, sugar, and alcohol during the rehearsal and run of her show. She said it made a huge difference. I need to start identifying which foods, even if they are counted, have a negative effect on my mood or stress level and vice versa.

Goals:
Workout
Find a Samba class
Track what I eat