(Big Deep Breath) Why can’t I get this under control? I exceeded my points probably more than I even tracked because I will admit I didn’t track bites of my son’s food and I didn’t measure anything in the last couple of days. I feel angry and disappointed in myself. Tonight I had only 2 points left and I could’ve just had an apple. Instead I finished the pasta I made for my son and I added cheese on top of it. I didn’t even enjoy it. I just didn’t want to waste it. I’m afraid to weigh in tomorrow because I’m afraid it’s going to be a gain. I am only 2 pounds away from being less than 200 pounds and I really thought this would be the week. I’m so pissed.
I didn’t exercise today but I did clean my house and I did enjoy my son. I also got some unfinished work done for my management company. I think that’s why I’m over eating. I feel the deadlines I’ve given myself and I’m comforting myself with food once again. I’m not talking about weight deadlines; it’s the career deadlines. I have a really hard time working on multiple things at once. I’m very narrow-minded sometimes. If I am focusing on one aspect of my life, I’m good. However, when I try to work on other aspects of my life, I let the other go. What’s wrong with me?
(Big Deep Breath) I will not stop trying. I will not stop trying. I will not give up. Tomorrow is a brand new day and I will track what I eat. I will measure my food. I will go work out after work. I will also stay positive no matter what the number on the scale says.
“When I dare to be powerful – to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid.”
-Audre Lorde
A few bad days does NOT ruin everything. Life is overwhelming and everyday is not the perfect day. Tomorrow you will have a great day. You will start your day by telling yourself what an amazing spirit you are, that you are beautiful, talented and strong. It's all about the baby steps, and trying really hard to love ourselves, even when we feel like we've failed. So what, you ate pasta and cheese that you 'shouldn't' have. Tomorrow, can and will be a better day. Remember what you committed to me, positive energy towards yourself. You deserve to give yourself a break. Aknowledge you has a less that perfect day, and move on.
ReplyDeleteI truly believe in you and know you will be successfull, you are too great not to succeed my dear!!! xoxo
you can do it. one day at a time. you are human!!! (although more fabulous than most)!!!!!
ReplyDeletelook at you blogging EVERY DAY!!! hello. that is a huge goal and challenge you have beat each day. you are part of my motivation.
i just got home from my WW meeting...this was my 4th week, so 4th weigh in...i have only lost a pound. i am not focused on my food, and although my workouts have been great, i am still over-eating. good food, yet too much of it.
this week is going to be fantastic for us both. yes, i am going out tomorrow, super bowl on sunday, and traveling for work a bit, but i am going to loose, because i am going to be honest with myself (and the actual size of my stomach) and i am going to rock it out.
you are amazing and take a step back please, and think about how much you have accomplished since Jan 1. :)
miss ya and much love. here's to a fantastic week in all areas....
kim.
Theresa, you're doing great! Boy, we are SO much a like. I am the same way. I can't focus on more than one thing at a time -- it sucks. I think it's because we give 110 percent to everything we do. Like you said, tomorrow is a new day. AND it's only pasta. I bet you didn't do half as bad as you think you did.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the loving scolding ladies. I have this horrible trait that wants to be perfect. I hate it sometimes. I will start again tomorrow and I will start to do what I tell everyone else to do. Talk to myself and tell myself how great I am. :) Love you both!
ReplyDeleteIt's one day at a time. You are a strong and incredible woman. We sometimes think we can do it all! Well, I know we can do it all, but not at the highest level. It's a great idea to narrow down your goals. Thank you so much for being a great woman!!! Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteTheresa, I know the exact feelings and behavior you are describing. I have been there so many times. Even when I was a nanny I used eat pieces of cut up hot dog and pretend it didn't matter. I wonder how many pieces make a whole? I think you and I once talked about how quickly the years go by and if we only lost a pound a week we would be down 52 pounds in only a year! You are going to have weeks were you lose 3, gain 2, stay the same, etc. So, just take a deep breath, give yourself a break and know this is, as cliche as it sounds, a marathon not a sprint. Also, when I'm having this same kind of week, please refer me to this comment. If at the end of the year you have accomplished even one big goal, that's a lot in not a lot time! xoxo
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