Day 50

I went to Zumba and it was a waste. The crazy redhead was back but this time she was too much of a disaster for me to appreciate. She did make me laugh a few times. First, her ipod wasn’t charged so she needed to borrow one from this girl in the class. The ipod she borrowed only had Jersey Shore fist pumping music. I was really annoyed. Then she would get tired and tell everyone to keep going. Tomorrow I have to bust my ass at kickboxing.

So far the first two days of my week have been 45-point days. I’m getting a little scared because this is what I do when I start to succeed, I sabotage myself. Tomorrow I am going to map out my point values for the day. I’m not going to eat and then just have whatever points are leftover at dinner.

I also want to change the habit of eating when I’m bored. I think that when I am not consumed by work and I can actually relax, I get bored. I’ve avoided identifying feeling bored because I feel like I don’t have the right to be bored. I always have things I can do and I have a very active two year old and a pretty cool husband. The truth is, when I’m not working, I don’t know how to relax without eating. I am going to change this behavior. Before I think of eating tomorrow I will eat a piece of fruit so I can make a healthy choice. Then I’m going to really try to identify if I’m hungry. If I don’t feel hungry I’m going to do something around the house or call my family. I usually start my munch fest while Adjei is sleeping.

Goals:
Kick ass at kickboxing
Eat a piece of fruit before eating or preparing something to eat
De-clutter my apt
Track what I eat