I haven’t tracked one bite today and I must be addicted to tracking because I feel totally out of control. I took a three-hour nap with Adjei and it was great but now my apartment is messy and I feel overwhelmed. My son doesn’t eat anything I make for him and it is so frustrating. Ellison has been working late and going to school so my gym time has been non-existent. I need a babysitter for at least two hours a day. It’s so frustrating because now that I’m not working full time, we are on such a tight budget. Ugh! I guess I will start to call different gyms around the city to see if they offer free childcare. I need a personal outlet because I am going through a major culture shock. Truth is, I'm going fucking crazy. I feel guilty about it because this is what I wanted.
Tomorrow I will go to the gym, hopefully. I will also track what I eat and do some exercises at home.
Don't feel guilty. You do want this. It's just going to take some time to adjust. That's normal under any circumstances. You will get there soon!!!
ReplyDeleteyou are so strong and you can handle this. change is so challenging and you are overwhelmed, which is normal. don't forget to breathe and don't beat yourself up for what is truly a huge success. you will feel so good, and soon, just allow this transition to run its course. breathe and then breathe some more....and know how much love and support you have, from me and from so many others. you are amazing and you have an amazing family :) i am sure your new schedule will take work and then will feel so good. thinking of you and much love. you've got this.
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