It’s unbelievable how much food and lack of control can impact your mood and focus. I feel totally off this week. This week Ellison has to go into work early, work late and he is going to school at night. So as of late I feel like a single mom. I am so grateful to have a husband who participates because it’s rough being the person taking Adjei to daycare and picking him up, getting him fed, bathed, and dressed for bed. I’m pooped! I know some people who don’t live in NYC may not understand the chore of taking your son to daycare but to give you a vision. I have a 15 minute speed walk to the train, then I climb down two flights of stairs to the subway, then transfer trains, walk up three flights of stairs to another train, then up two more flights to the street, then a five minute walk to the daycare. Usually no one helps. It's the price I pay to live in this city but I need to feel sorry for myself right now.
I hate that I am still reverting back to eating poorly when I feel overwhelmed by fear and stress. I really thought I was conquering this. I can get through this. Shit, I ordered a Pizza. This is bad guys. Tomorrow I am going to Zumba at lunch. I will track and I will prepare lunch for tomorrow.
I am Grateful for
Being a mom. I can’t believe I waited so long for my binky.
Attracting so many amazing women in my life.
My migraine slowly going away.
I just got really exhausted reading your daily routine of taking Adjei to the daycare. You are Super T! I know what you mean by reverting back to eating poorly. I did the same thing....for almost 2.5 weeks... What you really need, bottle of wine and a bubble bath....the best destresser and relaxer ever! You will bounce back T, I know you will. We are the ones who are hardest on ourselves. Give yourself credit, lots of credit! You are fabulous wife, mother, friend and all around person! We stumble, sometimes we fall flat on our face, but we get right back up, brush the dirt off, and continue on with one foot in front of the other! You're rockin' girl!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! Just keep going one day at a time, Theresa. This blog sorta made me miss living in a city.
ReplyDeleteThanks guys!:).tomorrow is a new day. I need one good day! Your support helps me more than you know!
ReplyDeleteI don't know how you handle being a mom in NYC. Honestly, I couldn't do it. I give you a super woman badge - and...you have to burn a lot of calories running around with Adjei. Have that slice of pizza girl! You will get back on track tomorrow. One day at a time - just cuz you have a bad day doesn't mean the whole program is out the window. You get a fresh piece of paper tomorrow to start jotting down your points on!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I am sure you have made a bunch of wonderful changes to your lifestyle that you're not even acknowledging - the fact that I even track my food is MAJOR. or the fact that I walk instead of taking the subway and that I drink water during the day. All of these little changes add up to big results. Keep up the good work super mom!
Take this week as a learning experience of how you react to stressful situations, and try and think of a way you can plan ahead to keep yourself successfull. It's okay to have a few bad days, because a great one is on the horizon. You've made tremendous strides in the right direction, you just hit a bit of a bump.
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I'm so tired at the end of the night that I haven't even been blogging. And I don't have a child, or job that requires a brain cell! You're amazing!!
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