I’m weighing in tomorrow and I’m excited. My weigh in girl is a sweetie and she knows not to tell me if I gained or lost. It’s been a successful week but I still struggle with the negative thoughts of “What If”. What if I can’t keep this up? What if I meet my goal and I gain all the weight back again? I just look forward to when this is all very natural for me. I’m so afraid of going back to eating junk and not caring. I think that’s the worst is accepting being fat. It’s true, I do have confidence but I hate being fat. I hate trying on clothes. I hate not being able to wear what I want to wear. I hate looking at old pictures of me when I was thin.
I also need to find a balance and I’m struggling with that. Today I made Ellison and Adjei tacos and I wouldn’t eat them. I didn’t even calculate the points. I ate an egg white sandwich instead. I’m afraid of splurging on anything I really love like chocolate, tacos, rice, and pizza. I’m getting hungry right now.
Tomorrow I will continue with the 50 sit-ups. I will also continue to track. I have to say I’m actually looking forward to exercising on Saturday.
Quote of the Day
“I've missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed”
-Michael Jordan
I know you are going to have success tomorrow. I also know how you feel, having those negative thoughts swirling around you, I have them all day everyday. What stops these thoughts and keeps this time different?? IT IS DIFFERENT! I have never follow through, I have never blogged about my triumps and failures, and I've never had a support so great as you ladies. Maybe it's too early for tacos, I know it's too early for me and pizza. I don't know how you feel about this suggestion, but for me, I don't cook anything for dinner that I won't eat. I get rageful watching my husband eat something that I feel I can't have. Even when I went vegan, I told him if he didn't like what was for dinner he was more than welcome to make himself something else :) He never did, and he always liked dinner. Just keep in mind, it's one meal, and everyone in any family could benefit eating healthy for at least one meal, right??? xoxo T, good luck today sister, I'll be cheering you on from the CT!
ReplyDeleteThank you April! I needed to hear that!
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