Day 12

I am on cloud 9.  I can’t believe that I actually went out in this god awful cold weather to attend a body conditioning class.  I was so proud of myself because I was five minutes away from being too late to go.  I had my workout clothes on, I asked Ellison to make sure he was home right at 6:00 p.m.  I made sure the condo was clean and dinner was made.  I had a load of laundry in the washer.  I even made sure Adjei was fed, changed, and in his pajamas.  I didn’t want anything to interfere with me going to this class.  Now this is a MAJOR behavior change for me.  I may be convincing myself that I am really serious about this exercise stuff.  The class was really intense and the instructor was this Puerto Rican, Ed Harding wearing, militant, no-nonsense instructor.  She kept walking by me because she knew at times I was cheating.  I was afraid she was going to kick me out.  I will be back, oh yes, I will be back.

So I have friends that want a partner or a husband.  Here is a great example of why it is not always greener.  So with all that I did to prepare so I can go to the gym—cook, clean, WORK, and care for our son.  I ask my husband how he liked the dinner I prepared for him.  He asks “Did you use the Paul Newman sauce”, I said “yes, why?” He says, “It had a funny, sugary after taste.”  I am still pissed off.  I really wanted throw all the food away that I cooked.  However, I did not do that. J

I have anger issues.  Oh my god Modern Family is hilarious.

Tomorrow I will continue to track, maybe forgive my husband for his insensitive critique, and go to a kickboxing class at lunch while picturing his smiling face.

Quote of the Day

“Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong”


-Peter T. McIntyre