I felt really anxious today. This morning I was running check lists in my head over and over of what I needed to do during the week. This is what I do. I start a goal like a Spanish raging bull out of the gate, with fire. I want to tackle every goal at once. I want to have an amazing spiritual, peaceful, faithful, Zen relationship with God. I want to be an exercising master that people look at and go, “Wow she’s FIT”. I want to be that story of the girl who always wanted to be and Actress and look, now she’s on BROADWAY! I want to be the business owner who was featured on MSNBC for Best Places to Live because SHE and her company brought a community together. HOLY SHIT this girl is AWESOME, she’s the Next OPRAH!! What the F man?!
So this morning my crazy thoughts are racing and I get this thought “Look Down” and the same thought keeps coming into my head “Look Down”. So I look down and my beautiful little boy is just smiling looking at the world around him. It was unreal, he was just smiling. It was right then and there that I said to myself…Fucken relax!! RELAX!!!!!! Should I say it again REEELAAAAX! I realized that I am trying so hard to live up to my ambition that it’s making me crazy and I’m missing the moment. The whole point of my blog is to be mindful, not to conquer.
After 2:00 p.m. today I would have fulfilled my goals from yesterday. For the rest of the day and tomorrow I am going to slow down and enjoy each crazy moment in my life. I’m going stop and take in the world around me. Halleluiah!
Quote of the Day
"I used to live in a room full of mirrors; all I could see was me. I take my spirit and I crash my mirrors, now the whole world is here for me to see."
-Jimi Hendrix
T - I truly believe you can have it all and not miss those awesome moments with your family. You can - just take it one day at a time! :)
ReplyDeleteLove ya, girl!
Oh, and I started a blog, too -- cuz I didn't want to be left out of the follow-through club, you know! ;)
www.mcgrawzoo.blogspot.com
Slow it down Sister!! You will have it all, just not in a week. Maybe work on something for a month, dedicate yourself to it. Once it's mastered and part of a routine, add another layer to the goal...?
ReplyDeleteMy back injury has forced me to take things slow. I think it's a blessing in disguise, actually. As they say, slow and steady wins the race!
ReplyDeleteThanks Guys! April, great advice!
ReplyDeleteTheresa, you are an inspiration to many! There is no expiration date. If we didn't set goals, we would accomplish nothing. And let me tell you, you are beautiful inside and out! Stay strong. We are all going to encounter emotional times, but that's why you created this club...we got yer back sister! Much love to you!
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