Day 224

I love days like today. I worked my tail feather at Zumba, so much that I swear the instructor was challenging me to a dance off. It was pretty freakin awesome. I’m having so much fun in Zumba because I just don’t care what I look like. My eating was fantastic. I resisted my nightly chocolate craving and had frozen peaches instead. I also worked on my management company with my partner. We did some great work on our cover letter and proposal. Today was very productive.

I’ve been feeling anxious lately and I haven’t shared it because I haven’t been ready to face it. A new transition is going to happen and I am scared and doubtful. I’m about to put my boo bear back in daycare so I can start working again. My fears of a shaky economy and the uncertainty of an acting career started to feel overwhelming. I also started to think it would be great to be part of a company again and make a decent living. I thought I could pay off debt, get good health coverage, and save for a bigger home. I started to plan everything but getting my headshots and pursuing what I set off to do at the beginning of the year. The truth is I am so scared to pursue something that is uncertain. All the what if’s came back and I just want to go where it’s safe. I had a long talk with my hubby and he reminded me that everything I’ve done that scared me was hard and I always had doubts, but it propelled me to great outcomes.

So the conclusion is to finish the following so I can follow through with the acting goal:

1. Find a daycare or better a pre-school
2. Update business resume
3. Update acting resume
4. Get Headshots