Day 121

Today was another great day. This is actually the first weekend in months that I did not over eat. Now that I have some momentum, I’m going to try and hold on to it as much as possible. I know that this will pass because that’s life but I’m going to do my very best when it’s easier. I didn’t go to the gym this weekend but I did a lot of exercise. I met up with some great friends all weekend and today I walked for about five hours. I am so tired so I know I earned some activity points. Ellison was great and spent some alone time with Adjei. It was nice because it gave me two days to have some much needed personal time.

I’m feeling really content with my choices right now and that is such a wonderful feeling. For the first time in a long time I feel like I’m not racing against a clock. I have this inner clock that ticks for everything: career, babies, weight loss, new home, more money…blah blah blah! Everything! Lately I’ve had peace and that is one amazing feeling. I hope I can figure out how I’ve gotten to this place. I know it’s always faith but how do I keep it?

This week I’m going to do two things. The first one is I’m going to walk through a little bit of fear. This sounds crazy but I’ve been scared to go to the gym and leave Adjei at the daycare there. I know that sounds crazy but new routines scare me. I’m also going to challenge myself to do a little more than I think I can do. Tomorrow I will go to body conditioning and I will track what I eat. I also need to find a Church I like.