So I’ve done much better tonight. I only had 36 points today and I tracked truthfully. I went to body conditioning and I worked really hard. I had a really awful thought in body conditioning and it kind of shocked me. I thought to myself “How long will I actually do this?” I felt like quitting and it wasn’t even because the class was hard it was because mentally, I felt tired of trying. Those nasty thoughts love to creep in. I can be really superstitious so I always blame the devil for thoughts like that. It’s like when I start to do good, that no good beast tries to creep in. Well he can go fuck himself because I am stronger than that. Plus I have Jesus behind me and nothing makes me feel stronger than him. Not to mention the army of Angles that surround me.
I feel so grateful for my life right now. I don’t have anything specific but I am so appreciative of my friends and family, my past and my hometown. I’ve made plans to go running tomorrow with my neighbor. I will also track what I eat and try really hard to stay within my point range.
Go T go! You know, those thoughts are bullshit, but they do happen. I had them yesterday when I was working out, bootcamp was so hard, I wanted to lay down and cry. Instead I felt my arms, where there are new muscles forming and not so much jiggle anymore. I then thought of the people that I know don't believe that I can do this, and that was motivation enough to keep going. I'll prove them all wrong! I will wear half shirts and bikini bottoms with highheels on the work, and get all GAGA on their asses. xoxo
ReplyDeleteLove it!! I can't wait until we've all reached our goals. We will have to take a picture together with half shirts and bikini bottoms!! You are awesome and you have a perfect shape!! I went running this morning and my partner, who is much smaller than me, asked for the first break! Little achievements like that keeps me going!!!!!!
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