Day 120

So our meeting today was about how do we get to that blissful place when things feel magnificent with program. When you’re feeling positive and you're tracking and you’re making healthy choices and everything is great. You’re like wonder woman with your shields against temptation. Bing bing! That's me blocking the dips and excessive sugar. Well, a lot of good reasons came up. Some of the reasons that stood out to me were: preparing, gratitude, acceptance, behavior changes, positive self talk, going to meetings, knowing that the tide will change good or bad, and walking through fear. My leader compared WW to her relationship with her husband. She said that sometimes everything is so great and you're so in love and you feel like life is perfect. Then the tide changes and there is either no time to see each other or your expectations are not being met. Then you're just pissed and you're like "why am I with this person?!"

This analogy made me look at how I respond to myself when I’m not doing well. I show myself very little compassion and I feel like it’s never going to change. I realized that during times of struggle I need to remember that this process is always going to be up and down because this is part of the relationship I have with myself. So the question is: What do I do then when I'm not doing well with eating or exercise? I came up with the following:

1. Go to a meeting.
2. Accept that things aren't perfect.
3. Forgive myself over and over again.
4. Acknowledge the changes I've made.
5. Push through something that scares me.
6. Challenge myself to do something that I think I can’t.
7. Try and try again.

My leader said that if something scares you, then you're probably heading towards the right direction. I really try to live my life by this because every time I’ve walked through fear, I get more confident. Today has been a great day and I made really healthy choices. I didn’t even use any of my weekly points. Tomorrow I will go to kickboxing and I will track what I eat.