So I ate a whopping 48 points today. I always get nervous about traveling but I get extremely nervous about going home. I’ve lost about 35 pounds since I’ve been home but I feel like I’m too fat to go home. Isn’t that nuts? I feel like I wish I were a smaller size. What’s that all about? I also get a sad feeling too because there are things back home that I get to avoid by living here. Going home to see family just brings lots of different emotions. Mostly positive and happy but I would lie if I didn’t say there were some uncomfortable feelings too. Every time I land and I see my mom or my dad I usually start crying. I don’t want them to think I’m miserable or having problems so I feel bad about that. So if I don’t cry I’m usually a bit formal. I just turn into a weirdo for the first few days of being home. So with all that said, its no wonder that I ate terrible and didn’t exercise. I’m also going to miss my E-Berg. He’s such a great guy and I can be such a jerk sometimes. Wow, what a pity party. I am feeling better as I write this though.
Tomorrow I will travel all day so please everyone send prayers, angels, and good energy. Right now I can only commit to “trying” not to comfort myself with food. I will also go for a nice long walk with my beautiful mommy.
I get super nervous, too! You will have a great trip. Your little monkey will be a doll and if you cry, just say they are tears of joy because you are so happy to see your family! Everything will be great!! Oh, and I know what you mean about the not being skinny enough thing. I'm always disappointed when I can't make my grand arrival somewhere with my new fabulous body. Helllloooo Jenna's ego, get over it! Have a fantastic time in ABQ! xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks Jenna! I need to take my ego out of it! I am such a mush mush with my parents. I love them so much that when I see them I just get overwhelmed with emotion.
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