Day 319

Oh you guys today was a doozy! I mean, it was seriously a tough day. I sometimes think I brag a little too much. I mean, I hear it and right after I say it I think, wow that was a little much. I have this need for validation and I’m slowly trying to let it go but it’s a big challenge. However, I’m going to have to say this because I kicked so much ass today, I just can’t keep it in. I’ve had so many behavior victories this week that if I could put myself on a chair and have four of me carry me around with a crown, I would. That’s how proud of myself I am. I am using exercise as my outlet and I’ve been tracking accurately. I ate all my weekly points by Monday but I haven’t given up and I’m back in the positive. Today could’ve been a pizza ordering day where I skipped the gym, then pouted for the rest of night for feeling like a failure. If any night could’ve been the night, it was tonight. I didn’t though, instead I ran in the rain so I could make it to my body conditioning class. Thank you thank you thank you sweet Jesus for being by my side because I didn’t do this without you.

Tomorrow I am taking the day off from exercise. I will continue to track what I eat and I will not reward myself for all the exercise I’ve done this week.