I am movin and groovin ladies. I’ve been exercising a lot and not because I’m trying to lose weight but because it feels so good. My eating has been terrible and I’m tempted to quit weight watchers because I’m not really following the plan and I can’t afford the 40 bucks a month. I’m going to give it more time because it works and it’s up to me to work the plan.
I’m so proud of myself lately because I’ve been going easy on myself and Ellison and it feels so good. I have some peace and I feel it’s because I’ve been working hard on understanding why I’m so hard on myself and also going back and reflecting on my past with journaling. It’s so powerful to write. I’m learning to be okay with right now. Being a mom forces you to focus on another person’s life on a daily basis. I’ve learned from watching Adjei grow that the little things we do on a daily basis have such a large impact on him. So when I reflect on this it brings me back that the most important day of the year is today. Today plus today plus more today’s create huge milestones for all of us. And not to sound morbid but we’re not guaranteed tomorrow or next week or next year. If you think about it, all we really have time for is what is happening today. So some of the questions I’ve been asking myself are: Can I be agreeable and let that fuss go? Can I comfort myself and say I’m good enough now? Can I love my family unconditionally with kindness, laughter, and without expectation? Can I laugh at myself and let my racing mind rest? In the words of Cesar Chavez, Bob the Builder and Barak Obama “Si Se Puede, YES YOU CAN!”
Today I love me for everything I am and everything I’m not. I am good enough NOW!! Today I will go for a run, do some work for my building, and write.
Proud:
Taking time to pray and love myself in the morning.
Talking to people I don’t know well and not judging myself.
Ending an argument without getting my way.
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