Day 355

Hi Guys, I’m so glad to be talking to you all right now. It’s been a week or so and I haven’t blogged because I’ve been isolating myself from the world. My eating is out of whack, my exercise has been minimal, and I’ve been obsessing about the possible obstacles of every aspect of my life. Fa la la la la! With all that said, I’m feeling really grateful. This year has been such a blessing, a complete blessing. First I thought it was my weight that was making me miserable, so I did something about it. Then I thought it was my job, so I did something about that. Now I’m realizing that is was none of those things and there is some work I need to do on myself. I feel scared, brave, excited, and scared. I give all my doubts to God and it feels so good to let go of fear, at least for this moment.

I have to get back to taking care of myself. I am extremely excited for 2012 because I feel free; my life is no longer in my hands. I will do the work but then I will let it go and give it to God. If I forget this, please gently remind me. Tomorrow I will track what I eat and I will also go for a light run or body conditioning.