I’m back to hating exercise. I don’t like it. If I hadn’t committed to going with my friend Alicia, I would have gone home. Exercising on Monday nights is just so hard. Especially after a cold busy day. I feel like I don’t want to try at anything for like a month. Does that sound crazy? I’m just tired. I’m tired of tracking. I’m tired of preparing my food. I’m tired of working. I’m really tired of exercising. I’m tired of everything. I wanted a pumpkin loaf today but I didn’t have one. I had a stupid banana instead. Boo! I just feel like I’m working all the time. I also hate people with flat stomachs. I don’t like skinny people today.
Wow this is an inspiring blog, isn’t it? Tomorrow I will track my damn food and I will clean my dirty house. Maybe it’s time for the gratitude list. Here it goes:
I am grateful for my baby boy who makes me smile and laugh everyday.
I am grateful for my patient husband who pulls me back to peace.
I am grateful for my friend Alicia who goes with me to body conditioning on Monday and Wednesday night.
I am grateful for a healthy body.
I am grateful for my mommy who makes me feel like I’m the best in the world.
Good Night!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Day 30
Vacation is over! I had a really relaxed weekend and I feel ready to hit the ground running once again. I only have a few of my weekly points left but everything I ate this weekend was well worth the splurge. I also skipped kick boxing today but I enjoyed shopping with Ellison and Adjei. So my guard was down with exercise and eating but now it is time to refocus. I grilled a ton of veggies tonight and I also made enough dinner for today and tomorrow. I was cleaning out my fridge today and I noticed that I was wasting food once again. This has to change. I spoke to Ellison and we are both going to commit to not wasting any food this week.
Tomorrow my goals are to go to a body conditioning class, track what I eat, and get my eyebrows waxed. This is just getting out of control. My lady may charge me double.
Quote of the Day
“I’m not funny. What I am is brave.”
-Lucille Ball
Tomorrow my goals are to go to a body conditioning class, track what I eat, and get my eyebrows waxed. This is just getting out of control. My lady may charge me double.
Quote of the Day
“I’m not funny. What I am is brave.”
-Lucille Ball
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Day 29
Today was a very successful day. I ate a lot of high point foods but let me explain. First, I went to Zumba and it was very crowded. Last week when I went to Zumba it was crowded and I ended up in the back where I couldn’t see well, so I was able to modify moves and slow down when it got hard. Today there were spots in the back and in the very front. I went all the way to the front and center. I was literally the instructors’ right hand woman. For those of you who are not class people, this is a lot of pressure. You have to know the moves and you have to keep up with the instructor. Without further adieu, I did fantastic.
The second accomplishment is, I went to one of my favorite bakery/coffee shops in the neighborhood with my dear neighbor to discuss our business. I enjoyed great conversation, an espresso, and an 11-point scone.
The third accomplishment is, Ellison was ordering from the diner and I usually have a chicken souvlaki platter that is extremely yummy. It has chicken, Greek salad, pita, and French fries. At first I told Ellison I wasn’t going to order. I was just going to eat something at home. Then I realized I would probably resent that decision once the food arrived. So I ordered my souvlaki platter. When it arrived I portioned it out; I measured 3 oz of chicken, 2 oz or fries, half the pita, and all the salad.
The reason why I am so proud of myself is because I enjoyed a lot of food that I love and I didn’t throw out my WW principals, nor did I feel guilty while I was eating it. I felt very much in control. I’ve been playing it really safe for the past month by avoiding all foods that I tend to over eat. I’m starting to trust myself more.
One more thing. I am writing this blog in bed and my wonderful little son is sitting next to me reading one of his books. This kid is just so freakin awesome. We are listening to MJ and I feel so grateful.
The second accomplishment is, I went to one of my favorite bakery/coffee shops in the neighborhood with my dear neighbor to discuss our business. I enjoyed great conversation, an espresso, and an 11-point scone.
The third accomplishment is, Ellison was ordering from the diner and I usually have a chicken souvlaki platter that is extremely yummy. It has chicken, Greek salad, pita, and French fries. At first I told Ellison I wasn’t going to order. I was just going to eat something at home. Then I realized I would probably resent that decision once the food arrived. So I ordered my souvlaki platter. When it arrived I portioned it out; I measured 3 oz of chicken, 2 oz or fries, half the pita, and all the salad.
The reason why I am so proud of myself is because I enjoyed a lot of food that I love and I didn’t throw out my WW principals, nor did I feel guilty while I was eating it. I felt very much in control. I’ve been playing it really safe for the past month by avoiding all foods that I tend to over eat. I’m starting to trust myself more.
One more thing. I am writing this blog in bed and my wonderful little son is sitting next to me reading one of his books. This kid is just so freakin awesome. We are listening to MJ and I feel so grateful.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Day 28
Guess who lost 3 pounds?! Yes, that’s right, yours truly! I am 3 pounds away from being out of the 200’s. I just can’t believe I made it through the week without throwing tracking and exercising out the window. This week was really tough.
I found out I was counting too many points for NY Pizza. I actually think that’s how I lost so much weight this week. I had to eat out all week and most of it was junk, so I think I over estimated my points. As much as I love the high numbers, it’s not a realistic way of living. My WW leader said today that whatever we’re doing now, we have to be able to do it for life or we won’t maintain the weight loss. I know that’s why I didn’t maintain my previous weight loss. I was too extreme. So I will try not over estimate my points. NY Pizza is 6 points, not 13.
I am so proud of writing every day. I haven’t had a created outlet for a long time and this feels great. Tomorrow I will mail out my Tootsie’s (Mom) birthday card. I will also go to Zumba and I will track everything I eat.
Good Night Everyone!
I found out I was counting too many points for NY Pizza. I actually think that’s how I lost so much weight this week. I had to eat out all week and most of it was junk, so I think I over estimated my points. As much as I love the high numbers, it’s not a realistic way of living. My WW leader said today that whatever we’re doing now, we have to be able to do it for life or we won’t maintain the weight loss. I know that’s why I didn’t maintain my previous weight loss. I was too extreme. So I will try not over estimate my points. NY Pizza is 6 points, not 13.
I am so proud of writing every day. I haven’t had a created outlet for a long time and this feels great. Tomorrow I will mail out my Tootsie’s (Mom) birthday card. I will also go to Zumba and I will track everything I eat.
Good Night Everyone!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Day 27
My buns of steel are so soar. This weather is killing me. I know I’m doing too much but this is what it takes to change my life and I have to embrace that. Change takes work. So tonight I had every excuse not to go to the gym. There is snow up the wah zoo. The streets are still being plowed. I am extremely tired because I’ve had work events all week. However, I went to Zumba tonight and I suffered the whole time. It wasn’t fun for me at all. I didn’t even enjoy looking at myself in the mirror. I was actually embarrassed by myself but couldn’t work harder or even look sexier. Just effin miserable. I hope that I am this committed when the weather gets nice. Sometimes I do better in times of adversity.
You know with all the snow and slushy streets I still love this city. This city makes me feel alive. I get stressed and pissed and I fantasize about a big closet and a backyard somewhere in suburban country but I truly love the grit of the city. I love the honesty of the people. I love that if I want to sing to myself and shimmy to a song I’m listening to, no one gives me a second look.
Goals for tomorrow:
-Call my brother again to schedule our weekly call.
-Track what I eat. (WEIGH IN TIME)
-Get the Frida’s waxed.
-Buy myself my La Mer
Ohh sounds like a beauty day.
Quote of the day:
"People wish to be settled. It is only as far as they are unsettled that there is any hope for them."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
You know with all the snow and slushy streets I still love this city. This city makes me feel alive. I get stressed and pissed and I fantasize about a big closet and a backyard somewhere in suburban country but I truly love the grit of the city. I love the honesty of the people. I love that if I want to sing to myself and shimmy to a song I’m listening to, no one gives me a second look.
Goals for tomorrow:
-Call my brother again to schedule our weekly call.
-Track what I eat. (WEIGH IN TIME)
-Get the Frida’s waxed.
-Buy myself my La Mer
Ohh sounds like a beauty day.
Quote of the day:
"People wish to be settled. It is only as far as they are unsettled that there is any hope for them."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day 26
I went to a body conditioning class in this awful weather. It was tough because this week has been exhausting. I've also tracked all week which is just amazing. I’m still surprised at myself for continuing to follow through. So crazy how one day turns into 26.
I wish I had more to say but it has not been an easy week so far. Tomorrow I will go to kick boxing and I will also track what I eat. I will also schedule some time to talk with my brother Kenny. I miss my family and I feel like my relationships are being put on the back burner. I suppose I do this because of the unconditional love they give me. Sometimes I feel like such a little girl.
Good Night Everyone.
I wish I had more to say but it has not been an easy week so far. Tomorrow I will go to kick boxing and I will also track what I eat. I will also schedule some time to talk with my brother Kenny. I miss my family and I feel like my relationships are being put on the back burner. I suppose I do this because of the unconditional love they give me. Sometimes I feel like such a little girl.
Good Night Everyone.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Day 25
I am struggling today because I feel like I am stretched very thin right now. I know it’s going to change soon, so I have to stay focused and positive and just do what I need to do. I went to a really cool seminar today about balancing life and work. The lecture was geared more towards setting goals. It was awesome because this woman, who was really successful and very inspiring, was lecturing on things that my follow through club and I are doing. She was saying that goals are not pass or fail, which I completely agree with. They are important because they help you make decisions that get you further than you want to be. I wish I had the energy to really go into this topic because it was exactly where I am in my life right now. I have known for a long time what I want my life to look like but I’ve put it off because of fear. However, I am now actually doing and not just thinking or talking about it. There is so much power in baby steps.
On an eating note. I had a shit-eating day because I couldn’t resist finger food junk. I blew almost all my weekly points in one day. However, I tracked it! I may have even over estimated. I am not, I repeat, I am not going to beat myself up about it. In fact, I am going to say horray Theresa for still being mindful. I am going to say Horray Theresa for trying everyday to be better.
Tomorrow I am going to body conditioning which is like the hardest class I take. I will also do some reading on my second business. I never mentioned this but I started a small business to supplement my income when I become a full time actress. I’ve been working on it for a year and now I have a lot of paperwork I need to fill out.
This is random but isn't our President just so damn awesome?!
Quote of the day
“The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.”
-Abraham Lincoln
On an eating note. I had a shit-eating day because I couldn’t resist finger food junk. I blew almost all my weekly points in one day. However, I tracked it! I may have even over estimated. I am not, I repeat, I am not going to beat myself up about it. In fact, I am going to say horray Theresa for still being mindful. I am going to say Horray Theresa for trying everyday to be better.
Tomorrow I am going to body conditioning which is like the hardest class I take. I will also do some reading on my second business. I never mentioned this but I started a small business to supplement my income when I become a full time actress. I’ve been working on it for a year and now I have a lot of paperwork I need to fill out.
This is random but isn't our President just so damn awesome?!
Quote of the day
“The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.”
-Abraham Lincoln
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