Day 165

So today wasn’t great with eating. In fact the only thing good about it was that I tracked everything and now I’m 20 points in the hole. I am not going to get down on myself because it’s life. I will have days that I struggle and I will have days that are very easy. I didn’t go running because I’ve gotten into the terrible habit of staying up late and waking up later than I usually do. If I don't wake up by 6:00, I can't go running and lately i've been dragging out of bed at 7:00. I seem to go through these cycles of kick ass and then slump dumps. I can still save this week if I eat within my points and I exercise. I will not gain more weight this week.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will eat within my points and I will go to body conditioning.

Day 164

Holy smoke guys! I hadn’t been to my body conditioning class in a couple of weeks and it kicked my bootay. During class I was thinking about how proud I am of the work I’ve done to lose weight. It’s hard work and sometimes I focus too much on the negative. I’m already sore so I know I’m going to be really sore tomorrow. My eating was better today. I don’t have any extra points left for the week but that just means I need to exercise a lot.

Tomorrow I will go for a run and I will also track what I eat. So I leave you with the song I sing to my son…”Don’t stop, don’t give up, keep trying, keep trying, don’t give up, don’t give up!” …Courtesy of Yo Gabba Gabba.

Day 163

So it was a fabulous day. The family went to a new Church and Adjei had a blast. That’s all I want is for Adjei not to feel tortured by going to Church. I know that I need to put God before everything if I want to feel like the free happy spirit I truly am. We are not entitled to a perfect life so I need to set a strong foundation for my baby. I feel like I am totally off the wagon when it comes to eating and exercise. However, I know what it takes to get back on so I’m not going to beat myself up. Once I have that super duper workout, I’ll be right back on track. I tracked every single bite this weekend and I’m really proud of it because I ate over 100 points, blah! I love Frances McDormand. Sorry Ellison just switched to the Tony’s because he’s pissed about the game. Yay for me!

Tomorrow I finally get to go to body conditioning. I will also eat within my points.

Day 162

I got my hair did, my nails done, and watched Adele videos with my hubby. Yes, it’s been a pretty awesome Saturday. Its so crazy how different Ellison and I are but we click so much when it comes to our creative spirits and outlook on life. My brother Kenny told me that I’d better be able to be myself with whomever I fall in love with. Well, I’m sure my coo coo self drives Ellison crazy most of the time but it’s all truth.

Today I weighed in and I gained 2 pounds. I knew it was going to be a gain because I ate like shit and I didn’t exercise. Surprise! It just gave me motivation to hit it hard this week. I’m also signing up for another 5k in September. My papa is coming to visit and we want to make this a tradition for us. I talked to my sister in law and she wants to get in on the action too. Tomorrow I am going to a new Church and I am very excited. I will also go for a run and I will track what I eat.

Day 161

Okay not a great week for fitness or eating but tomorrow I get a brand new week. That’s why I love weight watchers because you always get a new start. I really hope I don’t gain and I’m tempted not to weigh in but I know I should. Luckily, I have a manicure and hair appointment after my WW meeting. That should comfort my sorrows if any. I’m getting a few highlights painted in my hair and I need to touch up these roots. I love going to the salon. If I could afford it, I would go twice a week.
I have to start my week off with exercise tomorrow. It’s a must! So I will go running and I will start my week off with healthy eating and tracking.

Oh by the way, the fashion in NYC tonight was amazing. I was walking the city with my hubby and it was like a runway show. I just kept looking at outfits thinking, “I’m going to wear that and that and that!”

Day 160

This week has been a bit rough. I haven’t worked out much and I can certainly feel the difference in how I feel. I was telling Ellison tonight that if he needs to make a hard decision, he should work out beyond what he thinks he can do. When I do a class that pushes me or I run more than I think I can, I always have clarity after. Tonight I was watching “So You Think You Can Dance” and I was in absolute admiration. I love dancers. They are always so humble and they inspire me so much. I love to dance. I really love to dance.

My eating has been very rocky but I have been tracking. I’m in the negative by 15 points but I’m still not throwing in the towel. I will try again tomorrow. I really need to go running. I also need to focus on my prayer life. I’ve been anxious and sad all week and exercise can’t overpower God. When I'm having weeks like this, I look at it as a blessing because it means that God is moving me to do something. I’m listening Lord!

Tomorrow I will go running and I will also track what I eat.

Day 159

Today has been another good day. Adjei and I played at the park for a couple of hours before it got too hot. I haven’t blown my points and even had a little bit of ice cream. I haven’t done much exercise besides playing with my boo bear. Ellison has to work late tonight so I won’t be able to go to the gym. I will try to go for a short 20-minute run when he gets home. I have three points left for the evening and I’m not that hungry. I’m going to have 3 oz of grilled chicken and a salad. I really want to stay at 29 points today. I made the most incredible iced coffee. The trick is, making it a little stronger and freezing it so it turns into slush. I’m really starting to love the way my body is looking. I can see the changes and it makes me so happy. I know I’m going to keep the weight off this time because I’m not giving myself a deadline to lose the weight. I take it one day at a time. If I have a bad day, I try again the next. I also know that what I’m doing now I can do for the rest of my life.

Tomorrow I will be grateful and I will eat within my points.