Hi guys! So from my Facebook posts yesterday I’m sure you know how fantastic of a day I had. My cousin Kate was so generous to take me with her to see Richard III staring Kevin Spacey. We were literally within spit distance from this man. It was truly remarkable. He is the most incredible actor I’ve ever seen on stage. It was mind blowing. During his bow, he was heavy breathing and looked like he was ready to collapse. He puts that much into this performance. A true gift. I was so grateful, that I started to feel guilty. Damn guilt. After the show my cousin’s boyfriend, who works as the senior technician for BAM, took us backstage. My heart is still in my throat. It was so cool.
Today I was feeling really angry because my hubby told me that I needed to make some sacrifices with my spending. I knew he meant my WW subscription and I got so furious. I decided to go to my room and meditate before I started to blame him for all my woes, which I tend to do when I don’t get my way. After some prayer and meditation it occurred to me that if I can’t afford something, then I shouldn’t have it. Then another message came to me that was really powerful. One of the best gifts I can give to Adjei is to be happy with whatever I have in the moment. I need to show him that we can live a happy life no matter how much we have. I also thought that no one person or program is responsible for my choices or needs.
We also downgraded our cable to the basic channels and this whole weekend the t.v. has been off. I’ve done more reading, listened to more music, and did more playtime with my son. We adapt to what is and I believe that when we have more than we need, we get into a vicious cycle of wanting more. I know our finances will grow in time and I pray that I stay this mindful because so far, not having extra money has been a blessing. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a grace from God that I can see it this way, a grace I don’t take lightly.
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